Feeling inadequate

This image is from a recent article on the last Operation Christmas Child program from Samaritan's Purse. This was taken in Kenya. Look at their smiles, look behind them at where they live.

I wasn't planning on writing anything tonight, but as I was reading through some ministry updates from different organizations, I wanted to express how I am feeling. The title I chose for this post sums it up. As tears filled my eyes reading about all the poverty and the devastation in many countries lately, it saddens my heart.

I don't know what to do with these feelings, I want to help, to do more, more than just give money. I know it takes funds to provide the necessary help being provided, but I don't feel it is enough for me. I like to help physically but I'm not feeling a specific direction to go.

Sometimes I feel like all I do is "wait", and the encouragement I get is to "wait". The books I read talk about how we need to "wait" and so many verses I find in the Bible say to "wait on the Lord". Well, I hope my time of waiting is almost over, but is waiting ever over?

In Haiti, the rainy season will be coming soon and there is a worry about the spread of disease because of the bodies still buried under the ruble. The make shift shelters they have are not adequate. One organization is making sturdy shelters that are 12'x12' and have a steel roof. They have the roof slanted to catch rain water, then it goes into a storage tank, then through a sand filter. It costs around $1,000 for a shelter with bunk beds and the water storage, the sand filter is $100 more...... Lord help us be your hands and feet.

Am I just going to be a sender? Do I have to be in a job I don't like to make money to support others? Time, I guess time will tell. If anyone reads this, pray for me. I will try to patiently wait till whatever is next.

Roger