Our part in God's story...

Leaving for China

2011-05-31T21:41:00.002-05:00

Time is drawing near for our trip to China to visit orphanages, visit with missionaries, visit local churches, take supplies to the orphanages, and provide labor for a farm on one of the orphanages. We are going to be able to visit the little girl we both sponsor and have time to play with her and many others at Shepherd's Field. We are so excited for what God has planned for our future and what this trip may reveal to us. We ask for your prayers,

Blessings, R.B.

China in June!

2011-03-20T21:19:00.003-05:00

Amy and I are going to China in June just after our wedding. We just received the tickets this week. We are so excited to go and see what God has for us on this trip. We feel this is the right time and a good way to start our journey together. We are hoping to visit little Mel, the girl we both sponsor from Shepherd's Field. This will be an amazing opportunity and to see the way God has arranged all this is a testimony of His greatness and faithfulness. Can't wait to see and experience what He has for us. We will be taking a video camera to capture and remember the experience and for our first time seeing Mel. We would appreciate all the prayers we can get. All for His Glory.

R.B.

God's redeeming love

2011-01-25T19:50:00.003-06:00

Well, here I am... where I didn't think I would be at this time. Looking back, all the waiting makes sense now. God was working on me, working on Amy, working on circumstances, healing hearts, and focusing desires. Six months ago I didn't think anyone was reading my blog.... turns out my future wife was reading!!
That's right, the beautiful Ms. Amy that God brought into my life said YES to my proposal last Saturday. So the countdown has begun for a wedding in May, just in time for new life, new growth. Rain brings forth flowers and beauty from death.

Amy and I have made a decision not to kiss till marriage and so many question this and wonder why we are doing this. We want to honor God and do all we can to protect each other from falling into sin. We have done it different in the past and it didn't work out well and was not God honoring, so we want to do it different this time. In Song of Songs it says in 3 different verses...."that you not stir up or awaken love until it pleases." or " For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you abstain from sexual immorality; that each one of you know how to control his own body in holiness and honor, not in the passion of lust like the Gentiles who do not know God;" (1 Thessalonians 4:3-5 ESV).
Proverbs also warns about it in many places.

"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. "
(Romans 12:2 ESV)

So we may be doing things different, we may not be doing it the way the world does and that is good. Jesus said he was not of this world, and as His chosen people we are to be called out, to be separate from the world, not to blend in and look just like the world. Ok, to continue...

We have much planning to do as we are also considering going on a trip to China in the middle of June to visit orphanages. We need to plan where we will live, who is moving where, jobs, and so on. If you are reading this, then please pray for us. We trust in our heavenly Father to guide and provide. I pray we will listen and obey. We are still praying about little Melanie and we are sad she has to be in a crib so much, we are thinking of you little one.

Let us not be afraid to step out in faith when He is calling us to. We know that when we align ourselves with His purposes and agenda that He will support, fund, and watch over it. This marriage is not as much about us as it is about Him, this is for His glory. We didn't do it, He brought us together, He must know we will be stronger together than we are apart, use us for your glory, your purposes, let us shine your light to a dark and hurting world.

See, you can trust Him. Wait on Him, if He is silent right now, be patient and know He loves you.

R.B.

Update on Uganda Fund

2011-01-03T11:59:00.002-06:00

So far three people have donated and I am thankful for them and I know God sees their gifts. $80 was sent to In His Hands to help support the home building. I think this is just a beginning and pray more is raised in 2011.

What else is in store for 2011? A wedding? Travel? I am sure steps of faith and trusting more in God will be part of this new year. New challenges will come up and more sacrifice, in all that comes I pray I (and you) come to know our God in a deeper way. Draw near to Him and He will draw near to you. ( James 4:8).
As we draw near and seek Him, let us believe that He is. For without Faith it is impossible to please Him. (Hebrews 11:6)

Let us remember God's love and provision for the poor, the orphaned, the homeless, the widows, those in prison, those who are persecuted for the Gospel. We, His people, are His hands and feet, to help meet the needs of them. What is He asking of you this year? Is it time to take the step towards adoption? Has he been leading you towards a certain ministry and now is the time to take a step of faith? Is there a special trip you need to take to help clarify direction? Let the Spirit lead you, speak to you, then take a faith step.

The question is do you believe you can TRUST Him? If you absolutely do, then just be open and ready to move. He is faithful and we CAN TRUST Him in every situation we face. Open yourself to whatever He has for you and surrender your Will to His. Let this year be the year of a deeper and closer fellowship with the God who created you.

R.B.

Give and Recieve?

2010-12-24T09:26:00.006-06:00

If you would like to help support this cause in Uganda and also have a chance to win a cool scooter you can contact me for details and payment options. You can help support this great cause and get something in return. Even if you don't want the scooter you could sell it or give as a gift. This was given as a donation and we want to make the sacrifice worth it. It is a used Genuine Buddy Scooter 125cc. Pink in color, great condition, approx 2,680 miles and is an '06. Winner will be announced on Feb 10, 2011, just in time for a great gift for your sweetheart :). Arrangements will be made for pick-up or delivery. Thanks to all who help out and support this cause, may God bless your gifts. Thanks and Merry Christmas.

Give back.... all year

2010-12-17T20:25:00.006-06:00

As God challenges me to give more, to invest in eternal rewards, I am praying He is giving you whispers and promptings to do the same. I gave a challenge on FB for people to give up their preferred coffee vendor for a week and to donate that money to a greater cause. The response was....nothing, surprised? No.

So I am posting it on here also. Some people spend $3-4 a day on a fancy coffee drink. For a 5 day work week that can be $15-20, or $780 a year. I am just asking for you to give that $5 or $15 to something that will have a lasting impact.

I would even suggest if you will give up that drink to go a step further and start purchasing your own coffee from a fair trade and local income supporting supplier like this Gobena. We all can make little changes to make a big impact, but you have to start.

Would you like to give a special Christmas gift this year to your friends and family? Why not give a gift that will help save lives? In His Hands Orphans Outreach is raising money to build and furnish five orphan homes in Gulu, Uganda that will house 50 children. You can find their website here InHisHands. I will be matching donations given dollar for dollar up to $200.

Spread the word, send to your friends and family and lets do something for the least of these. We can make a difference! Thank you and may God bless your sacrifice.

R.B.

After waiting, a love story in the making.

2010-11-30T19:54:00.003-06:00

It has been sometime since I have written, I have been traveling a lot lately because God led this amazing women (Amy) into my life. The funny thing is, she was reading my blog 3 months before we made contact. I really didn't think I was going to meet someone this year. Someone from my prayer group told me that at the harvest time this year, God was going to give me more, and part of my destiny would start to be fulfilled. I prayed with faith that this was going to come true...

So after hearing about me from a friend Amy found my blog and started reading. She liked what she was reading and found herself crying about some things she read. She never made any comments despite her friends persuasion. She felt God saying, Your not the pursuer. So she waited..

She found herself praying for someone she didn't even know, not knowing that God was weaving our paths closer and closer together...

My friend told me about her and said she might be interested in me and I should make contact with her. I said I would pray about it but didn't want to be set up again. I did pray and wasn't sure for a couple weeks. After about 3 weeks I decided to take a risk and contact her. After our initial contact by computer I acquired her phone number and made a call...

So our first phone conversation was on Aug 15, 2010 and lasted about 8 hrs! I guess we didn't have much to talk about, ha! We kept in contact and decided to have a face to face, not a date yet, but wanted to see what would happen in person. We met at a Panera in the early afternoon, I ordered her a iced green tea and had it waiting for her upon her arrival. I was a little nervous waiting there in anticipation of what this afternoon may have in store for us...

I see her pull up and am trying to decide what I should do.... Umm do I stand here, meet her half way? act cool, don't let her think your desperate. Well.. I see her coming and she is caring something so I go to help her and... she is beautiful! the pictures on the computer didn't do her justice. I am excited.... I wonder what she thinks?? We greet, we sit, we talk... for around 11 hrs ! what! Yes that is not a mistake typo, we shut Panera down and watched the workers come in to make the bread! Leaving around 2:30 am, haha.

We shared so much, we laughed, I read to her, we looked at pictures. We have so much in common and share the same interests. We both love God and want to search out His will for our lives. We have had many confirmations that God is in this. I do believe this is who God has chosen for my future spouse. I can't believe this is happening, and never saw it coming. We never know what God may be up to. He has been forming us and remolding us for each other and at Just the Right time, He shows us some of what He has been up to...

So on Sept 3, 2010 we started our courtship. We have made a commitment not to kiss till marriage and to keep ourselves pure physically and try our best mentally. We want to do this His way and for Him to get the Glory! We want people to praise Him when we speak of what He is doing.

Now we wait for more of His plan. He has put more contacts for orphans and adoption in our path and recently a specific little girl in China named Melanie who is in an orphanage. She is 14 months old and doesn't have full arms or legs, would you pray for her? God showed this girl to my Amy weeks before and I didn't know about it. She had forgot to tell me about her and I came across her by looking through the children at this orphanage on-line. She caught my eye out of many many children and all with special needs. I send Amy a link showing her Melanie and she doesn't yet realize this is the same girl that was brought to her attention weeks before.... till she finds a paper with some things she wanted to tell me. I also found out about a guy named Nick Vujicic who doesn't have arms or legs and has a ministry you can found out about HERE.

I don't know yet what this all means for Amy and I or Melanie, but God does. I will just keep on being obedient to what He does show me. I will keep praying for His will to be clear and for me to keep walking the narrow road.

To Him be the Glory, Honor, and Praise forever! Be encouraged friends and keep seeking Him!

Roger

Who is your Hero?

2010-09-12T08:05:00.003-05:00

Have you ever noticed how everyone is looking for a hero, someone to look up to? I think it is a natural desire, a created longing by God, to want to associate ourselves with someone or something greater than ourselves, ( He desires that it be Himself ) in return it makes us feel significant. I thought this song by Bonnie Tyler shows the longing of the human heart.

Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and turn and dream
of what I need

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life

Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there's someone somewhere
Watching me

Through the wind end the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like the fire in my blood.

If you follow my blog you may wonder how this ties into the things of God. Well it seems pretty clear to me that this song is crying out for God. You have probably heard this song, but maybe never knew exactly what the lyrics said. Look over them again, she is speaking of Jesus!

Have you ever noticed how people talk about "their" sports team, or "their" favorite player, entertainer, actor/actress? As if these celebrities are aware of our existence. Again, I believe people want to associate themselves with these people or teams to feel like they are apart of, to feel better about, or have significance in their life. Please hear me, these things will never satisfy. These people don't know you, they don't care about your family, they don't want to know about your problems. Are you looking to add worth to your life by making an idol out of a celebrity?

Give your affections, time, and attention to the one who created you. God desires a relationship with His creation. He wants to fellowship with you, He does care about your hurts, your trials, your struggling marriage. Nothing else can satisfy like a close relationship with your Heavenly Father. Jesus, God in the flesh is above all as this scripture clearly states...

He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation. [16] For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things were created through him and for him. [17] And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together.
(Colossians 1:15-17 ESV)

Do you want a hero? You need not look any further than the maker of all, your hero is Christ Jesus.

I am the LORD; that is my name;
my glory I give to no other,
nor my praise to carved idols.
(Isaiah 42:8 ESV)

You shall not make idols for yourselves or erect an image or pillar, and you shall not set up a figured stone in your land to bow down to it, for I am the LORD your God. [2] You shall keep my Sabbaths and reverence my sanctuary: I am the LORD.
(Leviticus 26:1-2 ESV)

Don't worship the created rather than the creator, may God reveal Himself to you this day as you read this. Ask Him to be your All, ask forgiveness for putting your hope, or significance in anything other than Him. He will supply all you need, He loves you so much, God put on flesh and came down to become the only sacrifice that could satisfy the wrath of the Father for the sins of the world. He has reconciled Himself to you by the, Once for All sacrifice, you need to turn from your old ways, ask forgiveness, put Him head over all, seek to follow His ways and not your own. Put your full faith and trust in Him and choose to follow Him forever!

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
(1 John 1:9 ESV)

But now the righteousness of God has been manifested apart from the law, although the Law and the Prophets bear witness to it— [22] the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all who believe. For there is no distinction: [23] for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, [24] and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, [25] whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God's righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins.
(Romans 3:21-25 ESV)

Amen,

R.B.

Are you sleeping?

2010-08-31T17:50:00.003-05:00

I'm calling on Christian men to rise up and be heard, stand up for what God says is right. It's time to get out of the lazy boy recliners and get on your face before God in prayer, time to get into His Word and study what He has given us to lead, live, and serve. As men, we need to be leading our families, our businesses, our towns, this country, under the leadership of God. As we put ourselves under the guidance and authority of God and seek His will, then we will be able to lead others. We need to be looking at His ways and not the ways of men.

I believe satan, the enemy, (yes he is a real being not just a fairy tale story as he wants you to believe). That he has pulled this veil over us and with that comes a complacent mentality, a defeated outlook and has made men into push overs that would rather play video games, watch TV, drink, or whatever else to distract us from doing what is important to God's heart. The enemy is putting us to sleep with all our comforts and entertainment and dragging us down with lies about sins we can't seem to shake. This is bondage and this IS NOT what God wants for His redeemed children, Amen?!

The Bible says in Hebrews 12:1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, [2] looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith,

We need to break free from the bondage and the slavery of sin, when (or if) you accepted Christ as Lord over your life and as Savior you were made free by Him, through His sacrifice for YOU, not by anything you did, you didn't have anything to bring or offer to God accept your will.
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.
(Galatians 5:1 ESV)

Again, the lie of the enemy is. So you are free, now you can do whatever you want, you are forgiven.... sorry, lie. The attractions of this world are a yoke of slavery and most put themselves under this yoke because it is "freedom". Well, the Word speaks of this type of thinking also. Don't you just love God's Word?

What shall we say then? Are we to continue in sin that grace may abound? [2] By no means! How can we who died to sin still live in it? [3] Do you not know that all of us who have been baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? [4] We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life.
(Romans 6:1-4 ESV)

Did you catch that phrase at the end, Newness of life, that is good news brothers! We don't want to return to what we did before we accepted Christ, we are to go on and grow from faith to faith.

But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. [17] For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do.
(Galatians 5:16-17 ESV)

We are called to be holy, As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance, [15] but as he who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, [16] since it is written, “You shall be holy, for I am holy.” (1 Peter 1:14; 1 Peter 1:15-16 ESV)

Holy.., now that's not a word you hear very often. That's what God calls us to though. I believe we struggle in sin because most of the time we don't want to deny self. How serious are we about overcoming that sin that clings so closely? Did you know about the Gospel of Gary? What about the Gospel of Susy? or Jack, Steve, Mike, Lisa and so on. Do you get it? Most unbelievers won't read about Jesus in the Bible, they won't read the Gospel accounts in the NT, but they do See the Gospel according to us. Faith without works is dead according to James 2:17-18. We are what they see, the example by which they judge if this Christianity is for real, is there any power in it, any healing, any grace? and so on. We are the hands and feet of Jesus, His body, the church.

We are losing this young generation to video games and other stimulating entertainment because they don't see anything they want in Christianity.
Meanwhile.............. millions are starving to death, dying of preventable diseases, are without shelter and basic care. We turn our eyes, we hold onto our finances, we don't shed any tears, we don't fast or pray for them.

Do YOU even care???????

All this to say, God has a purpose for YOUR life and it is not to make yourself more comfortable, relaxed, plan your retirement, and see how good your life can be here. Brothers and Sisters, this is not our home, don't act like this is all there is.

I could give you lots of verses in the Bible that tell us to care for the poor and needy, to look after orphans and widows, but the verses won't change you if you don't want to be changed.....

I beg you, I challenge you, to ask God to give you His heart, His compassion, His eyes. Do this in sincere, tearful, honest, gut wrenching prayer and see what He will do. Please awaken from the stupor of this age and the lies of the enemy. Please, get a vision for something, God is multifaceted, there are many ways you can be used, many ways to be a voice, to be an example.

Get up... do something.

WATCH THIS!!!!!

In Him, R.B.

God is good

2010-08-24T19:45:00.002-05:00

The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
[23] they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
[24] “The LORD is my portion,” says my soul,
“therefore I will hope in him.”

[25] The LORD is good to those who wait for him,
to the soul who seeks him.
[26] It is good that one should wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.
(Lamentations 3:22-26 ESV)

That's all, He is GOOD to those who WAIT for HIM, to the soul who SEEKS HIM.

Haha, ooohhh He is good, thank you Lord!

Wait for Him, R.B.

Blessed in the waiting

2010-08-22T14:46:00.003-05:00

Remember, the journey, not the destination, is the key to relationship, with cultivating intimacy with your Savior. Eye hath not seen beside Thee, O God, what He hath prepared for them that wait for Him.

Here are a few more excerpts from "waiting on God" that blessed me. I pray it does the same for you.

p.81 Yes, blessed even now in the waiting. The promised blessings, for ourselves, or for others, may tarry; the unutterable blessedness of knowing and having Him who hath promised, the Divine Blesser, the Living Fountain of the coming blessings, is even now ours. DO LET this truth get full possession of your souls, that waiting on God is itself the highest privilege of the creature, the highest blessedness of His redeemed child.

p. 84 "Oh, that thou wouldest rend the heavens and come down, that the mountains might flow down at Thy presence." We must desire and believe, we must ask and expect, that God will do unlooked-for things. We must set our Faith on a God of whom men do not know what He hath prepared for them that wait for Him. The wonder-doing God, who can surpass all our expectations, must be the God of our confidence. Yes, let God's people enlarge their hearts to wait on a God able to do exceeding abundantly above what we can ask or think, ( Eph 3:20) (emphasis added)

This verse is speaking to me lately in what I am experiencing and God is showing me how Wonderful His is. I wonder if this verse is speaking to anyone else out there??

More to come.....

R.B.

God's vantage point

2010-08-19T05:28:00.004-05:00

I had a thought the other day driving to one of my jobs. It was early in the morning and I saw a hot air balloon in the southern sky. My mind starts to gather the many thoughts and I start to have a picture that reminds me how I want to live my life. I want to live my life to make a difference, zooming out from each small thing, to see how I can... me personally... affect the lives of orphans, to care for the least of these, to practice James 1:27. Let us pull back and view things from the vantage point of God.

This picture of the hot air balloon reminds me how I want to live with the big picture in view. I picture myself up in that balloon looking down, everything would look smaller, you wouldn't focus in on one certain car or a person walking down the street. You would take in the beauty of what God has created, seeing the forest and not just the trees. Should the Lord allow me to be married, this is a picture also of how we should look at the big reasons of why and what's the purpose? Now I believe we should enjoy the small things, but the reason for everything is to glorify God. Look at how you can do that in whatever you do.

So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.
(1 Corinthians 10:31 ESV)

Let us take time to consider our reasons for doing what we do. Are they mainly for selfish reasons? Are we considering what is best for the others? Are we seeking to glorify God and show His love, forgiveness, and redemption?

Let us have a single passion to love God, to make much of Him, for He is most worthy to be praised. Let us set our gaze upon the one who gave it all, Jesus, the sacrifice that brought reconciliation, adoption, and forgiveness to all! (many more big words could be used, but this works)

Another excerpt from, Waiting on God.
"He stirs up your nest. He disappoints your hopes. He brings down your confidence. He makes you fear and tremble, as all your strength fails, and you feel utterly weary and helpless, and all the while He is spreading His strong wings for you to rest your weakness on, and offering His everlasting Creator-strength to work in you. And all He asks is that you should sink down in your weariness and wait on Him; and allow Him in His Jehovah-strength to carry as you ride upon the wings of His Omnipotence.
Dear child of God! I pray you, lift up your eyes, and behold your God! Listen to Him who saith that He fainteth not, neither is weary, who asketh nought but this one thing, that you should wait on Him."

This chapter is based on the promise of Isa 40:31, one of my favorite verses and one I have been looking to for 3 years. I literally wear it on my hand. This is how it goes,

but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint.
(Isaiah 40:31 ESV)

also as of lately I feel He has given this promise to me,

It is the LORD who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”
(Deuteronomy 31:8 ESV)

Which is pretty awesome because I also like this one with the same chapter and verse.

Open your mouth for the mute,
for the rights of all who are destitute.
[9] Open your mouth, judge righteously,
defend the rights of the poor and needy. (Proverbs 31:8-9 ESV)

Let us rest in the Lord and wait upon Him only, for He is our Provider, our Redeemer, our Strength, our Healer, our Friend, our Father, and our God.
My Soul, wait thou only upon God!

R.B.

great book, Scared

2010-08-15T10:00:00.002-05:00

Tonight, I am wandering outside alone with my thoughts, walking toward the kraal, and thinking about Momma, who is at home trying to get some rest. Precious and Abu are asleep, dreaming of candy, I am sure. It is better for them to sleep when there is no dinner. I can't help but think of the burnt corn we ate two nights ago. My mouth waters for more. When the food is cooked, some always burns. We scrape the kettle to save the char for days when there is nothing else to eat- but now that is gone too. I try not to think of the ache in my stomach, but it's almost impossible. I think the reason Momma rests all the time now is because of the ache in her stomach. Whenever there is food, she gives it to Abu first, then Precious, then me.

I can see every star in the universe. The sky is a deep blue bowl filled with magical, milky fairy dust. My mother told me that fairies live in the stars. The brightest ones are the most powerful. I dream one of those fairies will find me and give me three wishes.

I first would wish to see my real daddy again, the way he used to be, and have him home with us. The second would be lots of food so nobody in our village would ever get hungry. And the third would be wings, so I could fly away...... No, not wings. I don't need to fly. The third wish would be that no one in our village would ever get sick again.......

........I am more tired than I have ever been. I fall back into a dark sleep with no dreams.

I wake to a great pain in my stomach. I try to stand, but I double over, my outstretched hands narrowly stopping me from falling on my face. My mouth starts to water, and I feel like I'm going to throw up. But still there's nothing in my stomach, so it is another gagging fit, I hate these fits.
Auntie comes rushing over and helps me back onto the bed. "There, child. Let me get you some water." She puts little drops on my lips. "You have slept for two whole days."
I try to sit up. Auntie sits behind me, lending me her big shoulder to lean against.

Life and hunger must be brother and sister..........................

to see a video of the real pastor Walter in this book visit http://vimeo.com/3285879

This is a fictional book which I don't normally read, but the author has a heart for orphans and this is based on real events and real life in Africa. It is by Tom Davis and is called Scared. Check out his others, Fields of the Fatherless, Red Letters, and his newest is Priceless. His website is http://www.hopechest.org/

B Blessed, R.B.

My soul waits

2010-08-14T20:22:00.003-05:00

I am still reading this small book, Waiting on God by Andrew Murray. I may have stated before it is a small book but I am taking it slow and rereading the chapters to soak in the truths. I wanted to share another excerpt from it.

And if you ask, How is it, if He waits to be gracious, that even after I come and wait upon Him, He does not give the help I seek, but waits on longer and longer?
There is a double answer. The one is this: God is a wise husbandman, "who waiteth for the precious fruit of the earth, and hath long patience for it," He cannot gather the fruit till it is ripe. He knows when we are spiritually ready to receive the blessing to our profit and His glory. Waiting in the sunshine of His love is what will ripen the soul for His blessing. Waiting under the cloud of trial, that breaks in showers of blessing, is as needful. Be assured that if God waits longer than you could wish, it is only to make the blessing doubly precious. God waited four thousand years, till the fullness of time, ere He sent His Son: our times are in His hands: He will avenge His elect speedily: He will make haste for our help, and not delay one hour too long.
The other answer points to what has been said before. The giver is more than the gift; God is more than the blessing; and our being kept waiting on Him is the only way for our learning to find our life and joy in Himself. Oh, if God's children only knew what a glorious God they have, and what a privilege it is to be linked in fellowship with Himself, then they would rejoice in Him; even when He keeps them waiting they would learn to understand better than ever.
" Therefore will the Lord wait, that He may be gracious unto you." pg. 74

I hope this blesses whoever may read this. Part of that verse really jumped out at me, ( that He may be). Our God loves us so much that He waits for us, so He can be gracious to His children.

May the Lord bless you and challenge you in your pursuit of Him. May He draw Himself closer and closer to you.

R.B.

God's Timing

2010-07-17T13:01:00.002-05:00

God keeps teaching me about patience and waiting on Him. I am still reading this little book by Andrew Murray, called Waiting on God. I'm taking it slow and reading each chapter twice, trying to soak it in.

While reading the Word one morning this verse jumped out. I have read it before and it was good then also, but it had a special ring so to speak this time. The verse is in Deut. "It is the LORD who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”
(Deuteronomy 31:8 ESV)

It reminds me that I should not worry ( along with many other verses about worrying ) about what will come. I fear it shows lack of trust, but in my heart I feel it's more that I will miss what He has for me. I don't hear clearly from the Holy Spirit as some describe they do. I get little impressions that are hard to discern and easy to miss. Each time, I have to question, is this you Lord or just my conscience? I guess that makes us more dependent on Him??

I started reading and have since finished a book on Gladys Alyward, a 1900's missionary to China. It was a great book and inspiring story of her life and work for the Lord. It also showed me that just because you do what the Lord wants you to do, doesn't mean it will be without trial and testing. Her life was not easy to say the least. I would recommend this book to people interested in missionary work. The one I have is from YWAM publishing.

This particular part was so good, I had to put the book down, laugh, and just reflect on how God works and His timing. At that time in China little girls feet were bound, which means they were bent under in half and wrapped with cloth to make their feet "small". They thought women shouldn't have "big" feet. The mandarin came to Gladys, which is the high official of the local army, and told her he needed her help. The mandarin doesn't visit you unless you are going to be executed or something else very important. To make it short, He asked for Gladys to go with escorted soldiers while being paid to each village, and make sure every girl's feet were unbound.

She was the only one who could travel to do it, since her feet were not bound like Chinese women. Men couldn't do it because they shouldn't look at woman's feet. He said she was the only one who could do it! Then she tells him, she is a Christian and came to share her faith with others and would want to make others believe as she does. This is how he responded. " It is most important that foot binding stop immediately. As to your religion, it is not of any importance to me. Speak of what you will. If the women become Christians, they will want their daughters to have unbound feet like you, and that will be a good thing." Ha, like wow, God is so amazing. I won't spoil the story for you but if you read the book, keep this statement in mind.

So it inspires to keep waiting on the Lord and His timing, that I will be where He wants me to be if I keep seeking, asking, and waiting. It doesn't make it easier as each day I have to remind myself of this. I feel God is stirring my spirit and I don't feel comfortable where I am at now. I want to be living for His glory in light of eternity, to make an impact on lives, for the least of these. Thanks for reading, may God lead you.

R.B.

Wait upon God

2010-06-13T20:48:00.002-05:00

I am reading a little book called, Waiting on God by Andrew Murray. I am learning that even if it doesn't seem like God is leading me because I am not where I want to be, or feel I am being used, that He is leading me. (story of Joseph's life) If I am seeking His will, abiding in Him, waiting on Him for guidance, then I must trust that I am where He wants me. Even this past weekend when I took a short trip to MO, I can see His guidance with people I met, and the timing of everything.
This book is good and I wanted to share a paragraph on page 23.

"Let us resolve at once that it shall be the one characteristic of our life and worship, a continual, humble, truthful waiting upon God. We may rest assured that He who made us for Himself, that He might give Himself to us and in us, that He will never disappoint us. In waiting on Him we shall find rest and joy and strength, and the supply of every need."

I feel time is drawing closer that it will be a season of change for me. I am excited as to what the Lord will lead me into. I have prayed for specific requests and have written them down, so when they come to pass, it will be a testimony to share, and an encouragement to my faith.

May the Lord bless you in your walk as you wait upon Him.

R.B.

The cross made a way

2010-06-08T20:05:00.003-05:00

There are many things that I haven't written on here because it doesn't seem like people read it. I felt this was worth putting down either way.

Worthy is the Lamb that was slain, for the cross has made a way so we can enter in, where we were once not allowed, there was a separation, but now there is reconciliation.

The man Adam sinned in the garden, he followed his Own will. He caused separation, death, and cursing.

Jesus came to make a way back to God, Jesus went to a garden and prayed, not My will, but Your will be done. Jesus wanted His Father's will above his own. He brought reconciliation, life, and blessing to mankind, by following the will of the Father. Aren't you glad he did?

I want to follow His plan for my life, He knows the end, He knows what's best. I will follow the Lamb wherever He goes.

One True GOD

2010-04-03T11:35:00.008-05:00

In this age of choices and the "salad bar of options" where everything is "whatever is good for you" and "anything goes" or "as long as you are sincere in what you believe", but no more absolutes for the sake that we might offend someone. The Bible, the Word of God stands unchanged, unwavering in it's absolute truth. There IS only ONE GOD, and only ONE WAY to be reconciled, or to be made right with God. That is by the way He MADE for US, through His one and only Son, Jesus Christ. That through belief and trust in Him ALONE, by repentance, turning away from sin, and walking in His ways, with Worship and affection for Him alone! Don't be upset that Jesus is the ONLY way to God, be thankful that there IS a way!

John 14:6 "Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."

In India there are + or - 33 million gods, goddess's, or idols that are worshiped. Millions of man created objects that are bowed down to and given attention and affection to. This may seen strange to us and it may be easy to point our fingers at them, but how much different are we than them?? I will be speaking to believers specifically now, followers of Christ that want to walk in the ways of God.

Ex 34: 14-17 Yes this is the OT, but do you think He changed in this?
"(for you shall worship no other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God), 15 lest you make a covenant with the inhabitants of the land, and when they whore after their gods and sacrifice to their gods and you are invited, you eat of his sacrifice, 16 and you take of their daughters for your sons, and their daughters whore after their gods and make your sons whore after their gods. 17 “You shall not make for yourself any gods of cast metal."

As followers of Christ, we must be careful not to make idols out of objects or people. We can worship and make idols out of materialism, entertainment, our TV's, the gain of wealth, our careers, sports teams, or players, houses, cars, motorcycles, actors, musicians, fashion, even our children or spouses. Now before you think I am crazy or being legalistic or too serious about this, do a study on idolatry for yourself. There are many good resources on-line, I like the ESV Study Bible and here is there site. http://www.esvstudybible.org/search. Just type in idolatry in the search and enjoy! If you only believe what is in the NT applies now, just start reading all those verses. You can also put in, worship, or just, idols. www.biblegateway.com is another good resource.

Worship is what we give our time, affection, and money to. So I would challenge you, what occupies most of that for you?? Do you sit in front of the TV for hours daily? (this use to be a problem for me) Do you play video games for hours daily? (again, was a problem years ago) Do you spend hours on Face Book daily? Do you spend countless hours cleaning, tuning your vehicle, spending excess amounts of money on it? (was a problem) Do you spend most of your time reading novels that take you into a fantasy world? Do you care way too much about celebrities and what is going on in their lives? Do you care too much about a certain musician, would you spend large amounts of money just to meet them? Do you spend your time and money fixing up your house because it is not good enough, or needing to upgrade to keep up with the culture?

These are just some questions to get you thinking, if they are convicting then don't get mad at me, maybe that is the Holy Spirit trying to speak to you about it. I'm not saying I am perfect, I know I have my own weaknesses, but I am working on them and God has been showing me what needs to change.

God wants your affection and He is jealous for it. In the NIV, Ex 34:14 "Do not worship any other god, for the LORD, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God." Ps 78:58 "For they provoked Him with their high places and aroused His jealousy with their graven images."

Our Hope needs to be in what can not be seen, Heb 11:1 "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." , and to store up our treasures in heaven. The world NEEDS to see this from US. If we are following the same things they are, and putting our hope, affections, desires, time, into the same things they are, then why would they want God? They see us chasing the same things as they are, and looking for satisfaction in other things besides the ONE TRUE GOD.

I love this OT verse, Deut 6:4-9 “Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. 5 You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. 6 And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. 7 You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. 8 You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. 9 You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates."

I'm not trying to sound harsh or come off as judgmental because I have things I need to work on, but I want us to go deeper in God. To have our affections set on God and not on the things of this world, because they are empty and never satisfy. If you are a Christian, you should know this and not want to return from what you were saved out of. I want to speak the Truth in Love,

Your fellow follower of Jesus, challenging you to go deeper into the heart of our God,

Roger

Oh the Savior's love

2010-03-27T18:03:00.004-05:00

It was a relaxing day (though not over yet) with reading (Bible and Hudson Taylor bio), doing a little around the house and lightening the load of possessions. It is a joy hard to explain, ridding yourself of things not used anymore and things that are not a necessity. To not be burdened by the abundance of earthly possessions is a joyful thing indeed! I thank the Lord for His constant work in my life and the preparation for whatever lies ahead. While pondering His Mighty Love and Awesome Grace, I wrote these words down. To the praise of His Glorious Grace!

To pen the words,
my soul longs to say;
To tell thee of our Savior's love,
how He walks with me each day.

Oh what a struggle it is,
these words can't explain;
the volumes that could be written,
and still not obtain!

Most worthy are you, O Lord,
though short do I fall;
To tell of your great Mercy,
Thou deserving most of All ! R.B.

I pray you also come to know the Lord God more deeply and intimately each day. For does His Word not say, Draw near to Me, and He will draw near to You?? Indeed it does!

Reminder of God's grace

2010-03-20T08:39:00.003-05:00

I was at a prison this thurs and fri for my job. I have to go to a few of these a year and am always thankful that I get to leave. With this job I have to go into each building and am surrounded by the inmates. I do have an escort but no one is armed because they don't take chances that weapons could be taken and used on the officers. It can be a little nerve wrecking at times but I trusted the Lord would protect me.

What hits me though is the fact of all these people that live in this little world. A prison is like a small enclosed city and some will live their lives inside. As I walked around and saw the sadness and despair in people's eyes, I was hit with the reality of God's grace anew. (and to think of how much better conditions are and how much better people are treated in the U.S. prisons than that of other countries)

I am thankful for His grace in my life, for where I was born and grew up, for how He watched over me and helped me make decisions. I realize that what separates me from the people locked behind bars is often one bad decision. Sometimes it's the fact that most are just not caught and these people were. This won't be a long post, I just wanted to share how God makes his mercy and grace real to me.

If I would have made different choices and taken different actions at certain times or in certain situations, then I could be sitting behind bars also. Some may be innocent and in other countries lots of precious souls are locked up for faith in Jesus. God's heart is for all and He wants us to care about all.

Matt 25:36 "I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me."

May you find His grace new and fresh in your life and be thankful for it.

Roger

Feeling inadequate

2010-03-12T19:52:00.001-06:00

This image is from a recent article on the last Operation Christmas Child program from Samaritan's Purse. This was taken in Kenya. Look at their smiles, look behind them at where they live.

I wasn't planning on writing anything tonight, but as I was reading through some ministry updates from different organizations, I wanted to express how I am feeling. The title I chose for this post sums it up. As tears filled my eyes reading about all the poverty and the devastation in many countries lately, it saddens my heart.

I don't know what to do with these feelings, I want to help, to do more, more than just give money. I know it takes funds to provide the necessary help being provided, but I don't feel it is enough for me. I like to help physically but I'm not feeling a specific direction to go.

Sometimes I feel like all I do is "wait", and the encouragement I get is to "wait". The books I read talk about how we need to "wait" and so many verses I find in the Bible say to "wait on the Lord". Well, I hope my time of waiting is almost over, but is waiting ever over?

In Haiti, the rainy season will be coming soon and there is a worry about the spread of disease because of the bodies still buried under the ruble. The make shift shelters they have are not adequate. One organization is making sturdy shelters that are 12'x12' and have a steel roof. They have the roof slanted to catch rain water, then it goes into a storage tank, then through a sand filter. It costs around $1,000 for a shelter with bunk beds and the water storage, the sand filter is $100 more...... Lord help us be your hands and feet.

Am I just going to be a sender? Do I have to be in a job I don't like to make money to support others? Time, I guess time will tell. If anyone reads this, pray for me. I will try to patiently wait till whatever is next.

Roger

Finished series

2010-03-02T22:26:00.001-06:00

...On radical faith by David Platt. It has made me think and look at what I have been taught. I knew God wanted us to be generous and give cheerfully, but these verses really make you look at what we are called to. I am doing some changes and will be selling some things, and looking at living even more simply.

I have traded in my "smartphone" today for a basic messaging phone and dropped my data plan and will be saving $20 month on that. For $20 a month you can partner with a Child Survival Program in India. Compassion has many others to choose from at different costs. The information for this one is here.

I will be doing other things but I am not going to share much if anything else, because I don't want it to come off as bragging, even though most will think this kind of living is dumb and not worth it.

I like this quote that David said, something like, I don't think anyone will be standing before God someday and He will say, "I think you gave too much to the poor and didn't spend enough on yourself." Hmmm probably quite true. We seem to always be looking out for ourselves, yes? One motto is : Look out for number one. I guess this is true if your number one is God.

Not trying to EARN salvation, just responding to the love, grace, and forgiveness I have been GIVEN, that was BOUGHT at a PRICE, when JESUS DIED for ME.

Growing closer to Him, Roger

If we are blessed, then what?

2010-02-28T14:19:00.000-06:00

I always seem to hear the phrase, "God has blessed America so much", or "We are so blessed in America". If this is true, and God has actually given us wealth and possessions, then why do you think that is?

If this quote is correct by David Platt, it is pretty astonishing, in 2009 America spent $10 billion on church buildings and total structures owned by churches in America come to $250 billion + . I can't even imagine what the stats would be for how much christians spent last year on unnecessary items or upgrades to what they already had. Would our giving outweigh our spending? I doubt it. What does this show the unbelieving world?

Jesus said in Matt 6:21, Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Where are we showing the world that our heart, treasure is?

I need to be reminded of this because it is hard not to get caught up in wanting more stuff. We are even called "consumers" , that doesn't even sound good. I know this is a heart issue and it NEEDS to be dealt with. God forgive us and me, how long before His patience runs out for us? When will he shake the nations, or has this already begun? To shake off false gods, false dependence, half hearted worship, and direct disobedience to his Word.

Ps 82:5, They have neither knowledge nor understanding, they walk about in darkness; all the foundations of the earth are shaken.

Matt 24:29, “Immediately after the tribulation of those days the sun will be darkened, and the moon will not give its light, and the stars will fall from heaven, and the powers of the heavens will be shaken.

Heb 12:27-28, This phrase, “Yet once more,” indicates the removal of things that are shaken—that is, things that have been made—in order that the things that cannot be shaken may remain. 28 Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, 29 for our God is a consuming fire.

2 Chron 7:14, if my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land.

Oh Jesus, how we need our land healed and sins forgiven, and we don't even think we do! Have mercy on us..... again! !

If God has blessed us with wealth and possessions, it certainly IS NOT for us to build ourselves a (treasure on earth) comfortable lifestyle, secure financial future, secure retirement plan, and an easy life. That doesn't look like loving our neighbor as our-self, only the loving our-self part.

David Platt also says this, God gives wealth and possessions to build a people who take His glory to the nations.

Now I'm not saying we don't do this at all, because obviously we do. There are many good organizations that are built on serving those in need and going to the nations with the Gospel and urgent need, Faith with Works. I'm just saying as a whole the American evangelical church is not living this way. The way Jesus asks us to live. How are YOU doing?

I'm asking myself these same questions.

Lord, do you want me to go serve in a less fortunate nation? To live out James 1:27, you know my heart, Just show me the way.

Roger

The Cost of following Christ

2010-02-24T22:15:00.000-06:00

You don't hear much about the Cost of following Christ these days. What you will hear is, come to Jesus so He can save you, forgive your sins, heal you, prosper you, give you a better, more comfortable, easier life. While some things are biblical of what He will do for you, I think He is asking what will you DO or give up for Him?

I am going to be looking at some of the verses that Jesus taught about being worthy of being His disciple, and what that may mean for me today.

The first one is in Matthew 19:21-23. Now is this a teaching for those who are held in bondage to money and possessions or for everyone? If everyone that is wealthy is commanded to sell all that they have and give to the poor, didn't all of the wealthy now become poor? Is this what Jesus wants?

I will be seeking the Lord on these verses and seeing what they mean for ME, so I'm not saying what they should mean for you. If you want, you can look them up and do the same, but that is up to you. I am just going to write out my part of the journey.

Matthew 9:37-38, Then Jesus said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few, therefore pray earnestly to the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest."

Ok Lord, so are you calling me to be a laborer? I thought you were calling me to Romania but I felt you said no. I'm still seeking Lord, where would I best be used?

Blessings, R.B.

Can you hear me?

2010-02-22T20:36:00.000-06:00

I guess it's been some time since I have written, but I didn't plan on making this a regular part of my routine. There are many other things to do and I have been reading some good books. I'm still focusing on hearing God's voice and what He has planned for me.

I have heard this before and I need to keep reminding myself that it's not so much about where I go or what I do, but about the WHO I know. God wants me to know Him better through this journey, I just want to be in His Will.

I have to keep trusting in His ability to lead, rather than my ability to hear, I think. God is a great leader and He wants me to do His will more than I want to do it.

He is still breaking my heart for orphans and the least of these. I just went to another orphan conference and I'm not sure why, but He is leading me closer to His heart, I'm just not sure where that is going to lead.
Also, something in my past was laid to rest on Sat 20th, regarding my former spouse and any hopes of reconciliation. Our paths were going in two different directions, so now what does that mean for me?

Is there someone for me out there that shares the same convictions, burdens, and call to a simple and radical lifestyle? Am I to journey on the path alone? Either way, I already gave God my YES before I knew the question.

So Lord, what is the question?

R.B.

Are you yielded?

2009-09-07T16:11:00.000-05:00

I am currently reading some of A.B. Simpson's work. This comes from "Himself",

Is your body yielded to Christ for Him thus to indwell and work through? Have you ever considered why He is called the Son of man? The title means that Jesus Christ is the one typical, comprehensive, universal, all-inclusive Man. Jesus is the one Man who contains in Himself all that man ought to be, all that man needs to have. All the fullness of the Godhead and the fullness of perfect manhood has been embodied in Christ, and He stands now as the summing up of all that man needs. His spirit is all that our spirits need. His body possesses all that our bodies need. He has a heart beating with the strength that our hearts need. He has organs and functions redundant with life not for Himself but for Humanity...

This is also good from "Christ our Savior",

Not all the preaching we have done or all the service we have rendered will amount to anything there. We must be identified with the Man who wore the thorns; we must be accepted in the Beloved, and then the Father will love us even as He loves His Son. We shall stand with Him even as Christ does.

Roger.

Prayer- mysterious and intimate

2009-09-06T16:04:00.000-05:00

Many books have been written and dedicated to prayer and there is much to be learned from prayer.

Prayer- being spiritual is hard to explain and reading many books on prayer has not made the journey any easier for me. What I have learned, is that from saints of earlier times relied on prayer and spent much time in prayer and in the Word of God.

Much can be written, discussed, and debated about prayer. I’m not going to try to expound to a degree of depth of any sorts on prayer. Much debate can be said about How, When, Where, Posture, and a big one, How long.

Why does God seem to answer some prayers and not others, can we change God’s mind by seeking and praying enough, do we pray once about something or keep asking?????

As I said, learning from and reading about past spiritual leaders of whom God used mightily, who seemed to have a unique and close relationship to God, has helped me more than reading “about” prayer.

Luther, Muller, and Tozer to name a few, relied heavily on prayer and also much time devoted to it. To say I don’t need it or rely on it seems to me a bit arrogant. Much can be learned from Godly men and women now gone, but living on in spirit and influence.

I desire to have a close fellowship with God, to really KNOW Christ, and commune with the Holy Spirit. To say that can be done by spending a few minutes a day in that communion, to me seems presumptuous. If you don’t agree, that’s fair, we each have to work out our salvation with fear and trembling.

I just know if I am going to pursue a human relationship, say with one of the opposite sex with intents for marriage. I don’t think that relationship would grow or become very deep by spending five minutes a day with that person, do you?

Another way to look at it. If you are a student in college or your specific job calls for study and further education. If you put little time into studying or research, what do you expect to get out of it?

You may say, that is different, I have to study for school or work. So why is it different? What is more important to you, your career or relationship with God?????

This is taken from a biography on A.W. Tozer titled, A Passion for God. One I have just finished reading. This is from pg. 121.

“Although the author never boasted about his devotional habits, those few who knew him well knew that the angular man with little formal schooling learned much about his Lord and his God in the secret place. Tozer spent incalculable hours in prayer. Most of his prolonged prayer time- with his Bible and hymnals as his only companions- took place in his church office on the back side of the second floor. He would carefully hang up his suit trousers and don his sweater and raggedy old “prayer pants” and sit for a while on his ancient office couch. After a time his spirit would drift into another realm. In time, he would abandon the couch, get on his knees, and eventually lie face down on the floor, singing praises to the Lion of the Tribe of Judah....

pg. 122.

Spiritually alert Christians said the the “bouquet of the Holy Spirit” was all over Tozer. Others used different rhetoric, saying that he had the “sacred anointing” or that is was evident “he had been with Jesus.” Tozer never denied that he spent many hours in prayer out of his increasingly demanding schedule. On the contrary, he maintained that anyone who wanted to know Christ better and love Him more must devote more time to closet prayer.”

pg. 146.

“That this modern prophet was genuinely humble, even if his methods could be acerbic can be seen in his dedication to prayer. Tozer took Jesus Christ seriously when He said, ‘whoever abides in Me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.’ To guard against a ministry with works that appear successful yet are fruitless, Tozer did only what he knew could keep him in a place to abide- that is, he spent increasing time in the Scriptures and in prayer. As the years passed Tozer increased his daily time in Bible reading and prayer- at once meditating on the Scriptures, praising the One who inspired them, seeking God’s help in writing words with the power to transform souls, and applying truth to everyday life. E.M. Bounds once said that a preacher who prays little is prideful because he thinks he can minister out of his own strength. Conversely, if an awareness of the need to pray is evidence of at least a modicum of humility, Tozer certainly manifested it.”

Quote from C.S. Lewis as he sums up the drama of human history as one “in which the scene and general outline of the story is fixed by the author, but certain minor details are left for the actors to improvise. It may be a mystery why He should have allowed us to cause real events at all; but it is no odder that He should allow us to cause them by praying than by any other method.” Prayer is a designated instrument of God’s power, as real and as “natural” as any other power God may use.

To sum up I will leave you with this quote from one of Tozer’s best selling little books, called “The Knowledge of the Holy”

Chapter 1 pg. 1. “ What comes into our minds when we think about God is the most important thing about us.”

Blessing, R.B.

Tickets secured

2009-08-29T21:09:00.000-05:00

Finally found some tickets at a decent price. I will be flying Air France Sept 16th-24th. I will be transferring in Paris.

I am currently reading a biography on A.W. Tozer called A Passion for God. I spent most of the day reading today, as I have come down with a little cold, so I rested and read all day. It was a beautiful day out so I spent a lot of the day reading on my back deck in the sun. I love these cool sunny fall like days. I really like fall, sweaters, warm cider, pumpkin donuts, cool weather.

So that's about all for now.

Love in Christ, R.B.

God's voice

2009-08-15T11:27:00.000-05:00

I've been looking at John 10 and really trying to get a grasp on knowing and hearing God's voice.

John 10:3 "The doorkeeper opens the door for him, and the sheep hear his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. 4 When he has brought all his own sheep out, he goes ahead of them, and the sheep follow him because they recognize his voice. 5 They will never follow a stranger, but will run away from him, because they do not recognize the stranger’s voice."

I was listening to a message by James MacDonald the other day and he was talking about hearing God's voice over all the distractions in the world, and compared it to a symphony. I thought this was a good analogy. I wrote this down as I thought about that.

Like in a symphony, the drums can drowned out the sound of a flute.

So in life, the world can be like the drums, and drowned out God's voice.

His voice is more like the flute, delicate, beautiful, quiet.

Not like the big bass drums beating out strong sounds.

Don't let the drums of the world drowned out the voice of God;

He's trying to tell you something, listen...

Not to say this is always the way of God, because he doesn't always do everything the same for everyone. I don't claim to have ever actually heard the voice of God, but his promptings haven't been loud and obnoxious, instead soft and subtle.

With others He can be louder, more direct, and speak in obvious ways. That just hasn't been my experience so far. I don't put God in a box and hope for clear, direct, and even interfering ways, because I don't want to miss what He has planned for me.

I will continue to study John 10 about Jesus being our shepherd also. This has so much meaning for us, and this one sentence could be studied quite deeply.

John 10:11 "I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep."

Blessings, Roger

Getting excited

2009-08-06T20:18:00.000-05:00

Time is getting closer for when I go back to Romania! The plan is to leave on Sept 16th as of now. I don't put anything in concrete because God can move things around. I'm excited to see the kids and all the new things that have been going on. There have been updates to the outside of the Isaiah center as well as inside. I'm really wanting to hear from God on whether He wants me to join FMN over in Romania, help at home as an advocate, or something totally different.

I want to give my life for something, to help others, to make a difference. Not that I feel I have to serve or work for God's approval. I don't think He will love me anymore if I do serve somewhere or if stay in a "regular" job.

I think the idea is the heart and our motives. I can reflect Jesus in my work anywhere and be an example for Him anywhere... at all times. Yeah that's hard. Everywhere, all the time.

It's out of a grateful heart of what He has done for me, and what I believe He has put on my heart. By praying for and asking for His will, I believe He gives us burdens and desires to do what He wants us to do.

I pray He gives me the wisdom to understand what that is and the spiritual ears to hear his voice.

You can view updates on the FMN website at www.fmnministries.org

Too radical for Christ?

2009-07-29T18:13:00.000-05:00

It seems these days when people try to live out their faith as is laid out in the Bible and being totally committed to God, we are called radical or fanatics. Well I have heard of sports fanatics, and being fanatic or radical about things people love. So, if you want to call me a fanatic for God, then that's fine by me. I don't mean radical as being hateful, judgmental, unloving, or violent, actually the opposite. Christ calls us to radical love and the giving of ourselves. Let us "waste" our lives for God.

If people can scream and holler about a sports team or singer/performer, then why am I weird for wanting to shout praise to God, the creator of all?

One of the biggest reasons people are turned away from Christianity is because people don't live out what they claim they believe, I say Amen to that. That's why I believe it is so important that as true followers of Christ, we need to be totally committed to Him and live as He said to live. Different than culture, yes. He gave us the model, and it's not enough to excuse it off and say, well He was God.

We are to strive to live as Christ, for Him to be our example, not other humans!

The Bible says we have to live in the world but not to be apart of the world. If you call yourself a Christian then you should feel very fortunate that God rescued you and called you out from your old life. We don't seek Him on our own, Rom 3:11 no one understands; no one seeks for God.

God has called us for a reason,

Eph 4:1 I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called,

2 Thes 2:14 To this he called you through our gospel, so that you may obtain the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ.

1 Tim 6:12 Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called and about which you made the good confession in the presence of many witnesses.

2 Tim 1:9 who saved us and called us to a holy calling, not because of our works but because of his own purpose and grace, which he gave us in Christ Jesus

1 Pt 2:21 For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps.

1 Jon 5:3-5 For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments. And his commandments are not burdensome. 4 For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith. 5 Who is it that overcomes the world except the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God?

God just wants us to love, obey, and worship Him. For all that He has done for you (me), why is it so hard for us? Radical, fanatic ? Not really, just not what we are use to. Different than our culture and what the world sees as important and worthwhile, YES !!

Love and Blessings, Roger B.

Stronger than David?

2009-07-12T14:25:00.000-05:00

First off, this is not for people who don't believe in God and are not following after Jesus.

This is for followers of Jesus, who want a relationship with Him and to live a life pleasing to God.

As the bride of Christ, His body (the church) God has called us apart to be different than culture, not apart of this world. In the world yes, but not apart of it. He wants us to be holy as He is holy, to live as Jesus did and be an example to others. Let us turn to the Bible for what is truth, even if it seems weird for our technology driven generation. Let's not be apathetic by all the blessings we receive. Let us live a life that gives back and blesses others. I need more of Jesus and less of me, my flesh is weak and I need to die to it moment by moment in all my choices. Do I want to live a life of momentary pleasures, lustful, selfish desires or live for God and strive to have the mind of Christ, even if it means giving up some of the luxuries in life? For me it's Christ, no question, to spend an eternity in His presence. This life is short, make it count for Him!

A lot of us feel we are not in need of much and therefore don't see our need for God. We all need God and are in need of a savior. We all sin and fall short of the glory of God.

As followers of Christ I don't understand how some can say that what they listen to or what they watch doesn't affect them. They say, I can handle it, it doesn't affect me, or I'm mature enough. So if you read your Bible and are familiar with the OT story of King David and his affair with Bathsheba. In 2 Sam 11:2 it says, "One evening David got up from his bed and walked around on the roof of his palace. From the roof he saw a woman bathing. Now this woman was very attractive." (net)

I notice that one, he SAW a woman bathing and two, that she was very attractive.

Now at this point he had a choice to make, does he continue with his lustful desires or go back inside and go to bed. Well, we know what choice he made and he didn't stop with lustful pleasures, but went on till he had Bathsheba's husband killed in battle. In this case this verse rings true,

James 1:14-15 But each one is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desires. 15 Then when desire conceives, it gives birth to sin, and when sin is full grown, it gives birth to death.

We know that sin starts in the heart and then is shown by how we act. We all have weaknesses and we probably all know what ours are. James 3:2 says, We all stumble in many ways...

For many, and I would say for most, what we view and listen to affects our thoughts.

Phi 4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of respect, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if something is excellent or praiseworthy, think about these things.

Rom 8:5

For those who live according to the flesh have their outlook shaped by the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit have their outlook shaped by the things of the Spirit.

Then David would write in the Psalms in 101:3,

I will not set before my eyes a thing of worthlessness.

Job would say in 31:1, “I made a covenant with my eyes;

how then could I entertain thoughts against a virgin?

Rom 12:2 states, Do not be conformed to this present world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may test and approve what is the will of God – what is good and well-pleasing and perfect.

So are these all just words, or do we take seriously what is written in the Bible for us? We want God to be loving but not just or righteous, but to be loving he has to be those things also.

So are we honoring God with our time, money, what we watch, and listen to? Do we not care about watching mindless "entertainment", listening to vulgar or degrading music, and spending hours playing violent video games?

I'm not condemning anyone but I think the body of Christ (church) needs a wake up call in America.

I come to share my journey and what God has done and shown me. If this gets you to think or the spirit of God convicts you of some things, then you have a choice on whether you take action on those convictions. I come as someone who has wasted way to many hours watching tv and playing games, when I could have been spending time with my former wife, with God, or many other worthwhile activities.

If we are always "entertaining" ourselves, how can God speak to us? Have you had the desire for God to speak to you? The Lord would say in Ps.46:10 He says, “Stop your striving and recognize that I am God!

I think resting, waiting, being still, has taken on a negative idea in America. We are not to be slothful, but taking time to rest, relax, and wait on the Lord is important. Look up all the verses that talk about waiting on the Lord. In the rushing around in our busy lives it will be hard to hear from God and then harder to be used by Him. Have you ever asked God to be used by Him?

I have not had cable or dish for over 2 yrs now and I don't miss it. I am careful to what I listen to and I have been spending more time in the Bible. This is my journey, what's yours? Where are you headed?

I will sum up with a verse from,

Phil 3:12-14, Not that I have already attained this-that is, I have not already been perfected-but I strive to lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus also laid hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself to have attained this. Instead I am single minded: Forgetting the things that are behind and reaching out for the things that are ahead, with this goal in mind, I strive toward the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

Sorry if this seems too radical for you.......God loves you and is jealous for your devotion. You will have to talk to Him about what He wants from you.

Shalom, brother in Christ. R.B.

Great song, You surround me.

2009-03-31T20:37:00.000-05:00

This song is from the celtic worship compilation, this song is by Brian Doerksen. This is such a great worship song, especially your private praise. The ladies voice is great also, very nice. What a great way to view our Heavenly Father. He deserves all our praise. If you like irish type or celtic, look it up. Here are the main lyrics.

You surround me, you indwell me, you’re beside me, ever present, always near.

You’re the whisper… calling my name gently, love eternal, reaching to me, jealous for me.

I….. will stay with you forever, arm and arm we’ll walk together, you will never let me go.

I….. can’t live my life without you, my whole will to live is for you. You’ve awaken me to know.

So good, be blessed.

Romania

2009-03-30T22:59:00.000-05:00

Last May '08, I went to Romania with a group from church and that trip has changed my life. We went to support Forget Me Not ministry and help out in the Tinca village. Much prayer went on when I was there about why God had me there, what He wanted from me, and has continued since I got back. My picture above with the kids on the bridge are those in the center, where they are learning about Jesus, being loved, and given hope. After much prayer and consideration, I turned in an application to be considered joining the ministry. I'm not sure what God has planned for me, but I am willing to do whatever He asks of me. I don't have anything holding me back from leaving. I would of course miss family, but I would be able to see them still, and hope they would want to come visit and see what's going on. God is so good and I know I can trust Him. He knows what's best for me, and where I can best be used and serve. To God be the Glory, let us raise up holy hands and praise Him, He alone is worthy of our praise, He is unparalleled, He is unprecedented, and most worthy of our Love.

Deut 6:4-5

4 Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God is one LORD:

5 And thou shalt love the LORD thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy might.

KJV

I love what Brother Lawrence wrote, " O loving kindness so old and still so new, I have been too late of loving Thee. You are young, my brethren; profit therefore I beseech you from my confession, that I cared too little to employ my early years for God. Consecrate all yours to His Love. If I had only known Him sooner, if I only had some one to tell me then what I am telling you, I should not have so long delayed in loving Him. Believe me, count as lost each day you have not used in loving God."

Amen.

Blessings, R.B.

Follower of Christ?

2009-03-30T19:57:00.000-05:00

What does it mean to be a "Christian" or follower of Christ? What defines or what does that look like?

The title "Christian" has taken on a negative connotation over the centuries, because of people and groups using christendom in a negative way, or used it to push their own ideals or objectives. So clarity is sometimes needed as to what that title means. It is said from poles and information gathering, that around 85% of Americans consider themselves to be "Christian". This is usually a lump sum of all denominations including catholic. I find that hard to believe and with a certainty can say that it can't be true. If it were true, would the U.S. be to way it is?

I know one of the biggest complaints from people, of faith or not, is the hypocrisy in religion. That is why living out what we, (I) confess to believe is so important. People judge and watch us to see if our faith is real. We are called to be witnesses and that means we are literally living advertisements for Jesus.

Acts 1:8

.....and you shall be witnesses to Me in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth."

NKJV

People judge Jesus and His claims by the way we live. People are asking, is this thing for real or just another religion and a bunch of rules to follow? Is there lasting change, does it fulfill a need or longing desire?

We have a great responsibility if we are going to claim to be associated with Jesus.

I love this verse.

Acts 4:13-14

13 When they saw the courage of Peter and John and realized that they were unschooled, ordinary men, they were astonished and they took note that these men had been with Jesus.

(NIV)

To be a believer or follower of Christ is not just accepting God's forgiveness, and going on to live our lives as we always have. There must be an inward change, and that change shows itself in the physical outward evidence in the way of "fruits of the spirit".

Rom 12:2

2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is-his good, pleasing and perfect will.

(NIV)

Gal 5:22-25

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25 Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit.

(NIV)

The next biggest sign is Love. So much is talked about love in the NT.

John 13:35

By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.

John 14:15

5 "If you love me, you will obey what I command

Rom 13:9-10

..and whatever other commandment there may be, are summed up in this one rule: "Love your neighbor as yourself." 10 Love does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law

Gal 5:14

14 The entire law is summed up in a single command: "Love your neighbor as yourself."

2 John 6

6 And this is love: that we walk in obedience to his commands. As you have heard from the beginning, his command is that you walk in love.

(from New International Version)

At last, I leave you with this,

Eph 4:1-6 (NET)

I, therefore, the prisoner for the Lord, urge you to live worthily of the calling with which you have been called,2 with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, 3 making every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. 4 There is one body and one Spirit, just as you too were called to the one hope of your calling, 5 one Lord, one faith, one baptism, 6 one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.

Acts 5:38-42 (NET)

38 So in this case I say to you, stay away from these men and leave them alone, because if this plan or this undertaking originates with people, it will come to nothing, 39 but if it is from God, you will not be able to stop them, or you may even be found fighting against God.” He convinced them, 40 and they summoned the apostles and had them beaten. Then they ordered them not to speak in the name of Jesus and released them. 41 So they left the council rejoicing because they had been considered worthy to suffer dishonor for the sake of the name. 42 And every day both in the temple courts and from house to house, they did not stop teaching and proclaiming the good news that Jesus was the Christ.

With love, R.B.

Why I do what I do

2009-03-29T12:09:00.000-05:00

Why do I want to serve, what compels me? Do I feel I have to serve God? Do I do it to try to earn something with God?

Robert S. McGee writes:

What a waste to attempt to change behavior without truly understanding the driving needs that cause such behavior! Yet millions of people spend a lifetime searching for love, acceptance, and success without understanding the need that compels them. We must understand that this hunger for self-worth is God-given and can only be satisfied by Him. Our value is not dependent on our ability to earn the fickle acceptance of people, but rather, its true source is the love and acceptance of God. He created us. He alone knows how to fulfill all of our needs.

All believers have the perfect basis for a proper sense of identity or a good self-concept, one dependent on who they are in Christ and, please note, one dependent on the value God places on their lives rather than on the value they or others may place on their lives. Whose opinion is the most important? Yours and mine, or God’s? Do we properly grasp how foolish it is to live our lives for the opinions of man?

—ABCs for Christian Growth

14 For the love of Christ controls us, (or compels us) since we have concluded this, that Christ died for all; therefore all have died. 15 And he died for all so that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised. 16 So then from now on we acknowledge no one from an outward human point of view. Even though we have known Christ from such a human point of view, now we do not know him in that way any longer. 17 So then, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; what is old has passed away — look, what is new has come!18 And all these things are from God who reconciled us to himself through Christ, and who has given us the ministry of reconciliation. 19 In other words, in Christ God was reconciling the world to himself, not counting people’s trespasses against them, and he has given us the message of reconciliation.

2 Cor 5:14-19 (NET1)

I know that I am saved by grace by faith and not by my works,

For by grace you are saved through faith, and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God; 9 it is not from works, so that no one can boast. 10 For we are his workmanship, having been created in Christ Jesus for good works that God prepared beforehand so we may do them.

Eph 2:8-10 (NET1)

Because of God's love for me and praying for His burdens to become my burdens, I want to serve and help others. We are to love one another, this is the greatest commandment. We can do all things but if we don't have love, it's worth nothing.

If I give away everything I own, and if I give over my body in order to boast, but do not have love, I receive no benefit.

1 Cor 13:3 (NET1)

And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love

1 Cor 13:13 (NET1)

So love is the driving force behind what I do. Love for others, love for God number 1, and to share His love with others. To share the hope that I have in Christ that they also may have the assurance of eternal rest with Him. God is light and in Him is no darkness at all, may we, may I be the light that shines in the darkness. Light dispels darkness and brings about hope and new beginnings. May God be that new beginning, for in Him all things begin and end. Without Him, what hope do we have? I leave that with you.

Time of seeking and waiting

2009-03-28T12:36:00.000-05:00

It may see odd to the culture to say, I am actively waiting, but that is what God wants us to do. By waiting on the Lord, I am not sitting with my hands folded doing nothing. I am pursuing Him by reading His word, reading Christian books that help me focus on Him. I am in prayer and looking for open doors. As hard as it is sometimes, I am trying to be sensitive to the Spirit and the leading or promptings I get.

To say it's always easy would not be true, but God is faithful and trustworthy to fulfill His promises.

Jer 29:11 For I know what I have planned for you,’ says the Lord. ‘I have plans to prosper you, not to harm you. I have plans to give you a future filled with hope.

Our hope needs to be in the Lord and not in people. No matter who that person is, they will let you down. They are human and it's just a fact they will fail you. God is not like man,

Isa 55:6 Seek the Lord while he makes himself available; call to him while he is nearby!

55:7 The wicked need to abandon their lifestyle and sinful people their plans.

They should return to the Lord, and he will show mercy to them, and to their God, for he will freely forgive them. 55:8 “Indeed, my plans are not like your plans, and my deeds are not like your deeds, 55:9 for just as the sky is higher than the earth, so my deeds are superior to your deeds and my plans superior to your plans.

I want to follow His ways and His path, because I don't know best and He does. I don't trust myself to know the best way. In Prov 3:5-6 it says,

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart,

And lean not on your own understanding;

6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,

And He shall direct your paths.

Psalms 25:4-5

4 Make me understand your ways, O Lord!

Teach me your paths!

5 Guide me into your truth and teach me.

For you are the God who delivers me;

on you I rely all day long.

(NET1)

I feel like God is leading me towards pursuing missions. I am open to whatever it is He wants me to do. I am taking a missions class right now called "Perspectives". It is a great class and I am learning much. I have turned in an application for a few different ministries, and waiting to see what doors open. I am ready to walk through, but I think God has me waiting and preparing me for what He has. No matter what, I am trusting in Him. That's all for now.